Wednesday, February 29, 2012

The Winter of Love

During the cold, barren months of winter, all of nature pulls back within itself. It is a time of rest, reflection and renewal. This is a time in relationships when we feel our unresolved pain or our shadow of self. It is when our lid comes off and our painful feelings emerge. It is a time of solitary growth when we need to look more to ourselves than to our partners for love and fulfillment. It is a time of healing. This is a time when men hibernate in their caves and women sink to the bottom of their wells.

After loving and healing ourselves through the dark winter of love, then spring inevitably returns. Once again we are blessed with the feelings of hope, love and an abundance of possibilities.

"Men are from Mars Women are from Venus, John Gray"


"Everyday is a happy day!":p

posted by mary @ 2/29/2012 04:49:00 AM  

Friday, February 24, 2012

Jose: Feb 24? Foreels??

  • Jhoanna Mary Calica
    8 minutes ago
    Jhoanna Mary Calica

    • e ano ung other half? hehe

    • wala masyado. normal na empleyado. ngeexplore panu ba mgkapassive income

  • Jose Gonzales
    7 minutes ago
    Jose Gonzales

    • wala di ako ganong interested sa religion e

    • hmm oo nga e ako rin yung passive income ang maganda e no

    • gumagawa ako ngayon basketball game e haha sa iphone

    • sikat ba si jeremy lin dyan

  • Jhoanna Mary Calica
    6 minutes ago
    Jhoanna Mary Calica

    • oo sobra

    • kasi pati akong walang hilig sa basketball kilala ko e

    • ngppassive income ka ba sa kumikitang kabuhayan mo?

  • Jose Gonzales
    4 minutes ago
    Jose Gonzales

    • hinde talagang per hour ako

    • para kong prosti haha oops

    • nasa labas kami nung minsan sabi sakin nung lasing na tao, hey it's jeremy lin! hahah

  • Jhoanna Mary Calica
    3 minutes ago
    Jhoanna Mary Calica

    • ikaw? haha kamuka mo ba?

    • sabagay lasing

    • hahaha

    • ikaw na "sikat"

  • Jose Gonzales
    2 minutes ago
    Jose Gonzales

    • oo pag lasing tapos caucasian pare pareho na yon hahah

    • hehe o nga

    • o sige na work work

  • Jhoanna Mary Calica
    about a minute ago
    Jhoanna Mary Calica

    • hehe cge go go



"Everyday is a happy day!":p

posted by mary @ 2/24/2012 12:46:00 AM  

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Manny: This is it

My feelings have awakened. Tomorrow is Feb 24. I wrote "I miss you" stuff. I bought a money clip. Then he cancelled our meeting tomorrow. I'm uneasy. *sigh* Good luck! =)

"Everyday is a happy day!":p

posted by mary @ 2/23/2012 12:48:00 PM  

To Manny - July 2 (archive(



  • Jhoanna Mary Calica

    • Manny, your love for me is so ideal. And I'm freakin stupid to let you go. I miss the times when we were just the two people in our world. At the same time, I miss the times when I am always there for friends and family who need me. I miss the romance, the look in your eyes when you say "ang ganda mo." Somehow it vanished along the way. I hope we'd done more adventures together, rather than lay in the room all day. I wish we didn't rush things intimately before. Because for some reason, I'm always putting it to blame. I love to take care of you, at the same time, I want you to take care of me too. I thought that being in love means accepting your partner's good and bad side. But why am I complaining? Why do I feel like there's something missing? These are the questions I have to answer for myself. A friend once told me that you shouldn't let your feelings be controlled by any external force. It should be felt internally, freely. Today I confront these emotions. I don't know what will happen in the future. I don't know what lesson this experience will give me. But I know God has put me in this situation for a reason. I'm excited to see what will happen next in this roller coaster life. I know breaking up is so hard for you to deal with and I'm sorry for having to put you through this but I won't force myself nor give in to my mother instinct this time. I learned so much from our relationship and I treasure that. Ion asked me, what if you did change, will I want to reunite? I honestly don't know what I'll want in the future. The future is bright only if you see that it's bright.



"Everyday is a happy day!":p

posted by mary @ 2/23/2012 12:47:00 PM