CLM: fight or flee
June 26, 2015, Friday, moa
Dinner at Gottis
Open forum real talk at bayside
We talked about our huge differences. My futuristic and his at the moment attitude. My need for security and his go with the flow. My future plans building a family in a house exclusive to us. His binding himself to serve his parents forever living in the same house in Cavite, wanting his wife to live with them. Our mumu issue concerns... tinali na nya yung sarili nya sa pamilya na. Pinili niyang maging taya. He has a great love and service for his family but at an expense of his own future. The woman follows her man. I should want to follow him but how can i if i dont see my vision in his vision. Pano ko shang susundan kung hindi ko maintindihan kung san sha patungo.
My heart is crushed by the revelations that the marks on my checklist for a future husband are one by one being erased. My values are in conflict, my mind is in a battle with my heart. I never pictured my life to be the way I see it with charles. My hopes and my dreams came crashing.
Charles suggested on how we can do something to narrow the gap of our differences but for me, I have to first decide if i should fight or flee. He's a wonderful person and he deserves all the love and support. I'm freaking hurt that i don't think i can give it to him, not without a lot of hesitation at least. I cant make up my mind. The forces are both too strong, the battle is matched perfectly.
We talked about our huge differences. My futuristic and his at the moment attitude. My need for security and his go with the flow. My future plans building a family in a house exclusive to us. His binding himself to serve his parents forever living in the same house in Cavite, wanting his wife to live with them. Our mumu issue concerns... tinali na nya yung sarili nya sa pamilya na. Pinili niyang maging taya. He has a great love and service for his family but at an expense of his own future. The woman follows her man. I should want to follow him but how can i if i dont see my vision in his vision. Pano ko shang susundan kung hindi ko maintindihan kung san sha patungo.
My heart is crushed by the revelations that the marks on my checklist for a future husband are one by one being erased. My values are in conflict, my mind is in a battle with my heart. I never pictured my life to be the way I see it with charles. My hopes and my dreams came crashing.
Charles suggested on how we can do something to narrow the gap of our differences but for me, I have to first decide if i should fight or flee. He's a wonderful person and he deserves all the love and support. I'm freaking hurt that i don't think i can give it to him, not without a lot of hesitation at least. I cant make up my mind. The forces are both too strong, the battle is matched perfectly.
posted by mary @ 6/27/2015 11:02:00 AM
