a petty fight
It was thursday, august 25. The joke was on me. The day before, I asked eisen if he could print my report and then I'll just pay him after. Okay, he did, but first thing in the morning he told me he left it at home. Right then and there I began to get worried. I needed those papers mostly because it's a group work so if I can't produce my part the whole group suffers. I can't absent myself in all subjects before English. What do I do? It's in Eisen's mail and we can print it outside in between subjects. But why isn't he getting out everytime I beckon him to go? Almost English time. "Eisen let's go." "No, let's wait til our prof checks the attendance then we can go." "Eisen, let's go now!" Suddenly, he gets his bag and pulls out two familiar sheets of paper. Damn! He had them all along and he made me worry althroughout Circuits, Thermodynamics and Taxation! >.< style="font-style: italic;">Pinaasa nya ko!! Niloko nya ko!! was my cry. I left when I shouldn't have left. Thursdays are always lunch then play billiards with Aowie cause she has PE from 1-3pm. Not today of course. He even sent me forwarded sms about people who's angry gets turned into drooling monsters, or that those who walk out gets their feet cut off so as not to be able to walk again. haha! funny, yes... I still ignored him. The next day, Friday, he apologized... the whole day! And all I did was contra him, ignore him, darted an eye on him. He was even like, "Jhoa, sorry na, look at me I'm so sad." Anyway, I did that just to get back on him. That time the incident was nothing. Actually, my "anger" vanished in a few hours' time the same day. I just wanted to get back even. That's us you know. No one wants to be defeated by the other. But then I thought, he probably knows I'm just kidding around. Though I was smiling cause he's so funny when he apologizes, he really bugs you, I gave a straight face and showed I was "mad." I guess he took what I did seriously. It was even raining when we left the building and as usual, he doesn't have an umbrella with him. He usually shares mine but well, we were not in good terms and I wasn't carrying an umbrella either. The next day got worse. I got in school, he ignores me completely. I ignored him too. There was not even an eye contact. This made me feel really sad. I was missing him. This is bad. Saturday was usually billiards day cause there's no classes the next day. We usually persuade Julian and Gervy to play with us. But today is different. We got out of class an hour earlier than usual. We watched the volleyball games at the covered court. We were a bunch. He was there, I was there. Yet it feels that we're not in the bunch. Barely feels like we know each other at all. I just listened to him laughing with my other classmates. I left without saying goodbye to anyone. I left him and when I went back to look he was still there. Looks like he didn't go home early. Why? I hope it's the same reason I thought of. That it doesn't feel right, going home early when all the past Saturdays were spent together with us eating then playing billiards. I wish he felt the same way, even if it's just in the aspect of friendship. That day was the worst. It felt incomplete. There wasn't even an sms from him. Dull. Dead. Wrong. I didn't sleep well that night. Sunday came. I want to believe that he can't resist not talking to me. He only forwarded a corny quote. Two corny quotes i think. It made my heart jump and that night I sent him a lot of corny quotes. He replied with, "Ui bati na nya ko! hekhekhek!" and it was the signal that we're back together as buddies! I hope that when we see each other tomorrow, everything will seem like nothing happened.^_^ This incident made me realized how much I depend on him. How much I didn't want him to go. Yet I feel that there will come a time that it will happen. But it won't happen without me fighting to hold on. I love him. Am I allowed to say that? No. I take it back.
"Everyday is a happy day!":p
posted by mary @ 8/29/2005 05:17:00 PM
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