The Apartment

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I love my family. They supported me all the way. I talked to them everyday. Mama brought me a lot of stuff including the curtain (that i can never close completely) and electric fan that they bought. I always ask her stuff about what i should do with the odor among other things. I never really talked with the other boarders. I was always in my room enjoying my alone time. The only downside of course was my family being far, I don't really go out but that could be good too, the place was really old, it gets dirty very fast, mosquitos and insects, the CR definitely substandard and the water "dry" and a bit stinky, no fridge and no cooking. Yet the pros outweigh the cons much better and it was just a matter of adjusting to simple living. 

A few realizations of how i love my family, how much they love me, how supportive and caring they are, even richard and nanay went to visit me. They were happy for me. I love them so and it is still always better that i have them with me. I love the rest. Positive reinforcement. Making a habit. I did form that habbit of taking a bath at night, eating those diet healhy food, cleaning and exercising. I hope they remain with me even in BMA. Haha i enjoyed having my own room so much😁

The 8 minute walk to the office was glorious! My hair and face were always perfect! I eat a lot of healthy food because I buy fruits and wheat bread. And because I don't cook at night. I exercise every single day, cardio and dumbells and the last night i did yoga. I read all the time. Sometimes I study. I listen to music. It's very peaceful. I made an inspiration board and i read it everday. I clean and organized my things. I take a bath in the morning and at night. I love my independence and peace.

Well, I'm back at the BMA house by Nov 4. God keeps on surprising me. It didn't even crossed my mind ever so slightly that a dead guy's spirit from my room window would want to court me and therefore causing accidents and healtg issues to me and my loved ones. Although at first I didn't feel any energy and was happy with that, eventually, bad things started to happen. Lucky that we have Tita Nancy to warn us of these things and Mama and Papa immediately fetched me Monday night in the apartment. I noticed bruises on my legs on my first week, rashes on my second (?), dengue on my third, fourth i wasn't there because i was in the hospital but nanay had a fall thank God she was left with just a small wound on her forehead. When i got back i felt the same chills and heat like the onset of my dengue fever that night. I never go to sleep straight in that house except before i got the fever when i felt so so sleepy all the time. That week I started to really notice something odd in that place and i was thinking of going home but decided to stay instead. By nov 2, going the cemetery, the kia got into an accident with richard, arlene, jhoanne, mama, dustin and me inside. Jhoanne's lips bled and was sent to the hospital asap. Thank God no one got badly injured. Me and mama got bruises and a bump on the head. When i camw back that sunday night, instead of the usual karaoke that i hear everyday, twas the sound of a cat or baby crying which persisted til the next night. I placed a rosary on my table, initially wanting to put it on the window sill. That night somethin that dropped on the floor (citronella) woke me up and i saw the window open eventhough i'm sure i closed it before i sleep. I didn't feel my heart beat louder, I didn't feel fear much but I know that something's not right. I told mama the next day when i got a stomach ache and she called tita nancy. Immediately they fetched me that night, sprayed holy water in the room. There were other instructions. The thought of the mumu kept me awake a few more nights afterwards.

Lord, God, thank you so much! For keeping us away from harm that could have resulted worse. For keeping my family closer together through the experiences that we encountered in this journey. For reminding us that You are king. For all these things, I know that You want us to grow and learn from the experience as a family. It was definitely unexpected but I did learn a lot of things about myself. And how much my instincts are always right. To not worry because you are here. I miss tito pogs and mameng and lolo ciano. I know that they saved us in the car accident. This has actually been a humbling and inspiring (self confidence boosting) experience and I'm grateful for that. This is such a test of not being affected negatively by what life throws at you, beyond your control. And I would say I passed it with flying colors? Haha thank you Lord God! I love you!❤️ I love my life!❤️