i'm getting weaker

I've been weakened by summer! Yes, this is what i want to think. Look at what's been happening to me... First of all, my head hurts a lot now. When I sit in front of my pc, I can't stay long...no, i can't stay even for a short period of time without my head hurting or my eyes turning red and burning! geeez! what's happening to me?!? too much computer?? probably... okay, it may be so... but what about this one... my forgetfulness is becoming too much to bear this past weeks. i've been forgetting where i put stuff i just held a few seconds ago. i'm getting shocked at things that see or don't see. as if they appear or vanish instantly. i know it's my head but why? what's happening to me? is it because of the summer heat?? i sure hope so... i'm about to try this exercise i read in an article before to improve my memory. at the end of the day, i try to recall all the things that happened to me during the course of the day. slowly, i should recover and picture things more and more, little by little, detail by detail... hopefully soon! maybe this is due to my poor sleeping pattern; sleeping very late at night, waking up very late at lunchtime. maybe it is from taking a bath late at night... but i think that causes anemia... anyway, i'm feeling weak. maybe i do have anemia now. that's why i also try to do some physical stuff every once in a while. but still, this is what i've noticed... a long time ago, i used to wear myself out from playing "basketball" in the garage after about 2 hours! 1 hour at least.. but now, i don't think i even get to 30minutes without sweating too much, needing to sit down and drink. i'm getting weaker and weaker every time. concerning my eyes, they're always stressed! as i've said, i can't use the computer for too long now. that is one reason why i made up a story that i'm in rizal right now. i told a few of my friends, and i am acting as if i'm in rizal where there's no phone signal inside the house, no cable and no phone lines so there's no internet connection... i can't be an addict... another reason would be daniel actually. i wanted a break from him. he hurts me with kats and the thought of maybe falling for him yet he's only making me his 'karir.' something that's just like a play thing. no day passes by without his missed call, then i misscall him back then we text. just some crazy stuff. he used to send me corny messages because i like them so much. he text me a lot but as i've learned, he also text kats a lot too. i know he likes he, there's no denying it. i'm the president of their love team fan's club!! but i think until now, kats has a boyfriend so daniel can't possibly get in between them! i don't know... i guess kats and daniel are spending a lot of time together lately. they may be just friends but since i have this feeling that daniel really really likes kats, there's this something going on in this guy's head that's probably a heaveny feeling... i may be jealous?!? sheeesh i hate this flirtatious side of me that makes her think she's the most beautiful girl in the world! grrrrr to you other side!!! stop this insanity at once!!! i'm getting weaker physically and mentally.. but actually, i'm getting weak spiritually too. i'm reading "purpose driven life" every night yet it doesn't sip into me. i haven't been praying too. i haven't been happy! i wish summer ends quickly. maybe then i'll be back to normal as before. i don't like this feeling. it's dead. i'm not dead. i'm alive. so let me live. because being dead when you're alive sucks real bad!+_+ help me please...='c

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