summer's getting better

Let's face it... Summer has been boring, sad and so damn hot! It first started out well cause I thought I would be spending my summer on guitar lessons and teaching Calculus plus the long awaited trip back to Ilocos! Little did I know that everything on that list will go kapoof! I stopped going on workshops because B-anne can't go then Rainer can't go too. Secondly, teaching Calculus wasn't necessary anymore. Lastly, Tita Ollie and Jay-Ar fought over Ollie's boyfriend that's why we can't go to Ilocos. What a lame excuse to not go! I was looking forward to it! I'm looking forward to fresh air, nature trippings, simple life and yes, I admit, I want to see how Glenn had become since we last saw each other in the summer of 2002. Dare I write the story? No. I'll just state it in brief. I had a crush on him when I first visited Ilocos one summer when I was 14. The next year I he courted me. Then on the last day of my stay we were together and I had my first real kiss. That's all I have to say for now.

Anyway, I thought too that summer would still be okay since I have a textmate by the name of Daniel. But eversince I "went to Rizal," he rarely call or text me. I wasn't able to tell him about my "stay in Rizal" but I think Kats and his summer study are the main reasons why he's not papampam anymore. It was a coincidence I think that Eisen started to ring my fone almost every late in the evening for nothing. Lyndon was also back in the scene. He called me once, the day before he went back to Bicol, then up until now he sends me text messages like he used to. No quotes, just his texts about his love and his suicidal attitude. Before I continue with my classmates topic. I want to share something I wrote in friendster blog. I should have typed it here but heck, here it is anyway:

"Yesterday, I was at Camille's house with Acriza. Shempre ansaya ko kasi tagal na naming ndi nagkita! Naaliw pa tlga ko kasi coincidentally, pinalabas sa MTV Diyes yung Top 10 Linkin Park songs (kaya ndi kme nkauwi agad). Shempre kming 3 LP fans dati pa kya todo tutok kme nun. OP man ako kc preho cla mka-Mike Shinoda pnagbigyan ko n lng cla..haha! Lalang! Natutuwa lang ako kasi kahit ndi kme mxado in touch ni Acre (dahil sa bundok sha nakatira, wlang fonlyn thus d pdeng katelebabad o kchat, sobrang mgkalau skul at bahay nmin, at di nya kme mpapunta ni camil sa kng san sang malayo dhl lam nyang wlang mangyyari samin), still alive and kickin pa rin ang frendship namin! Saludo ko sa kanya! Lam kong between me and Acriza, sha mas ngeexert ng effort to spend time with me. Kaya nga twing ngyayaya yan ndi ako mkatanggi kahit pa me Physics finals kinabukasan at alas dose na ko mkauwi okei lang! Bat ako tatanggi? Mga ganyang invitations bihira lang kya every chance i get, i don't hesitate to grab. Walang sagot na "ndi ako pwede" pg c Acre na nagyaya. Manigas na muna ung assignment/project/quiz/finals/ubo/sipon/lagnat/pc/appointment/pati lakad ksama ibang prends. Hehe sobra... cge, one time dpat mgeEK kme ksama cousins nya pero me sakit ako kya di na ko sumama. The point here is, Acriza's a frend i can't bear to lose. How she treats and values her friends can't compare to all my friendster friends combined. When you meet a person like that, you're lucky. Don't let anything bad happen to your friendship. Losing that person can mean losing a whole lot of you. Treasure these friends who are willing to go into a lot of trouble just to be with you, to laugh or cry with, share their feelings and empathize with yours too. Ayan luto na ung pancakes, kain na ko! Ciao!;p"

That happened last wednesday. Yesterday was different. Patrick asked me to go to school with Rainer and Eisen. He said he just wants to surprise B-anne. I saw Senedy there too and her hair is longer now. Eisen's hair is longer too and I was like whoa, nice hair! Of course I didn't say it out loud.;p I don't want to do anything that would make me obvious. Pat, Eisen and I went to B-anne's house. We just watched "The Aviator" and then a few Anime while eating popcorn. Eisen fell asleep yet again! He loves the sofa in B-anne's house! We went home and Patrick offered to walk me to our house. He was shocked when he saw a lot of people inside. Sorry for that Patrick but things are just like that in our little home. Well he shocked me too when he told me he's given up with B-anne. I always thought he'll be the last man standing. How wrong I was! He even wants me to be his new "karir" now that he's out of girls. Ha! Sheesh I don't like it. Though he has this effect on girls, I don't want to fall for a "bad guy" like him. He has a lot of girls you know. Not so long ago, he admitted having a crush on me first that any girl in the room. I don't believe him for the reason that Lesley, B-anne and Kat are more eyecatching than me. I don't know. Very few people notice me because of my physical appearance. One reason is because I don't like to dress up and doll myself to please the people who will look my way. I don't want guys to look at my appearance, I want them to know who I really am. I want them to like who I am and not what I look like. That's why if I easily reject guys who says they want to know me better because they seem to like what I appear to be. I just don't go with guys like that. [probably an exception for Glenn but that's another story] If I get into a relationship, I hope it begins in a friendship then blooms into another level. Sort of what happened to Lydon but I'm sorry to say that he's the only one that went into the next level. This could happen to me and Eisen though, but I'm not hoping. I don't want my heart to break if I expect it and it won't happen. I'll just get hurt so I'm sticking to plan: hide your feelings and be happy that you're close friends. Summer's getting better. Physically, I'm improving thanks to the new work out machine Tito Henry brought home one day. I'll probably get addicted to it anytime soon. I ran almost two kilometers today. I love the sweat it makes me give off, and the firm muscles it tones. It has made me feel and look healthy and I love how it has really improved my health so far. I've been with friends. I talked to Francesse (my elem bestfriend) last night for two and a half hour. I am happy when I'm with them. Yesterday was the last airing of Full House. GMA cut a lot of scenes. Strategy! So they can air an uncut version later. Sheesh! I'm not into PC that much now and that is good. I'm also not so hot about the guitar anymore but I still play it. It's just that I get a bit frustrated sometimes cause I can see very little improvement on my finger positioning. Yeah, Daniel did say "Nobody said it was easy" and he's right. I just hope I don't give up on it cause playing the guitar is just so cool. Not just cool, I really like the music it produces along with my love for singing (not in front of a crowd of course!). I'm looking forward now to a night swimming in the usual place we go swimming to. In Filinvest. They say there's a new built slide. I wanna try it. I'm also looking forward to having a few days' vacation in Rizal at Tita Susan's house if she's gonna let me.;p I feel good now and I want to enjoy this vacation still. Pacific Plans going down? I'll worry about that later. I hope Richard gets in swimming varsity so he can avail a full scholarship from UST. That would be a great help now that Pacific Plans won't pay our tuition anymore.^_^

"Everyday is a happy day!":p