Thank You Lord

My last song syndrome..haha for how many days now... I just like this song.

Wag Na Wag Mong Sasabihin
by Kitchie Nadal

May gusto ka bang sabihin
Ba't 'di mapakali
Ni hindi makatingin
Sana'y 'wag mo na itong palipasin
At subukang lutasin
Sa mga sinabi mo na
Iba'ng nararapat sa akin
Na tunay kong mamahalin
Oh....
huwag na huwag mong sasabihin
Na di mo nadama itong
Pag-ibig kong handang
Ibigay kahit pa kalayaan mo
Ano man ang iyong akala
Na ako'y isang bituin
Na walang sasambahin
'Di ko man ito ipakita
Abot-langit ang daing
Sana'y nga sinabi mo na
Iba'ng nararapat sa akin
Na tunay kong mamahalin
Oh....
huwag na huwag mong sasabihin
Na di mo nadama itong
Pag-ibig kong handang
Ibigay kahit pa kalayaan mo
At sa gabi, sinong duduyan sa 'yo
At sa umaga, ang hangin ang hahaplos sa 'yo...

I have done the impossible! haha kidding... Yesterday evening I received a very heartwarming text from Lyndon. He said that I changed him and that I don't know how I mean to him..blah blah blah.. I was so relieved to know that he gave up on trying to commit suicide. I don't know if I struck him that much but I certainly hope so. He marked the date November 2 to to be his last day. Well, today, I mean 1 and a half hours ago, was the end of Novermber 2. He hasn't texted me since yesterdey evening but I don't feel bothered at all! Well, maybe just a little.. hehe But I've been praying night after night for him to get well...spiritually, mentally, emotionally... I'm really proud of him. He's trying so hard. ^_^ I am too... I'm trying my hardest to keep myself intact for him...to hold on to. If I give up on him, I know something bad might happen to him. I could probably be his last chance for salvation. Whew! But in this new experience with him, he taught me a valuable lesson. He made me realize how precious life is; how important the people around me are; how much I care for those people and how i wouldn't wanna loose them in any particular way. I've learned that I could make a difference. He has taught me how to value and how to love. He has made me a better person and I'm thankful for that. He told me his secrets... I thinks it was way back two days ago...hehe It was shocking ("sex maniac" dunno what to believe anymore..hehe sometimes it crosses my mind that he might only be playing a trick on me...oh well, that's what you get when you get sometimes......) yet I need to stay unaffected by that...to be able to give him a "me" to depend on..:p oh I've been writing/typing too long now..hehe I'll finish it now with Thank You Lord!!