sembreak

hey! it's been sooooooooo long since i last posted here... a lot of things happened during the semester... the loneliness at the start of the sem... the OV mania! hahaha the overnights, and the gimmicks and the nightlifes with kuya ryan, frix, zyra, ate aubrey, shishi, kuya jhek, calai, ron, anna... though not all of them can afford to be always with us the whole time we're together doing "bondingan" stuff... hahaha their company is so overwhelming... i love them all so much!! there's also my near fatal doom in my grades... i must admit i lost control a bit in my studies... i hardly study seriously... not until i learned that i needed a 304/200 finals score in DSP!! that's where it hit me and i realized so much during that week of pressure and faith. i have God to thank for. i got my clearance report yesterday and i'm proud to say that i passed all my courses and i'm now in the status of "IMMORTAL" in engineering! i can never be kicked out no matter how many subjects i failed... of course after what happened, i can never allow myself to be put into the same situation again... barely making it alive with an average of 42! from 60 ave cut off, the prof lowered it down to a whopping 40! "there can be miracles when you believe" hahaha! sad news of the recent times however, two of the people in my social life died. my tito pogs suffered from heart attack and i wasn't there during his final moments. i was too busy during the last few days he was here and i regret not being there. i love him so much eventhough it probably doesn't show. i miss him now but i know he's happy with the Lord guiding us, his loved ones here on earth. my classmate april died in a car accident the last day of finals, not too long after my tito had died. though we weren't that close, 4 years as her classmate is such a long time not to be affected by her passing. its ironic how these two deaths gave me two entirely opposite lessons... first is the value of life, so much that its end is something that is so complicated that i feel much emotion to it, knowing that with death comes the end of hope. the second time, i realized how natural death is that it should not be treated as a disease and an end for death is also the beginning of life with our Saviour. i love my life, i love my friends, i love my family, i love nature and all things in this world! the only thing i'm worried right now is that guys right now are trying to connect with me. now that i don't want that. now that my life is too happy and contented that i may not want anything else to have the chance to ruin it. i'm scared of change. i don't want this to end. another thing i want to add is that i loved my father more now than before. eventhough he claims that his other girl won the 1 million raffle in BIR, which i may never prove if its true, he loves us, provides for us everything that he could in his power to make our lives easier. he loves us and that's the only thing that matters. "Everyday is a happy day!":p